I realised today that you can create your own rainbows.
For the creative types out there, you’ll know that sitting at your desk waiting for inspiration, it rarely comes.
It usually requires action. It could be whilst out running, walking or like me yesterday whilst hosing anything in sight in my garden. As I sprayed the fence, a little dirty with a few cobwebs. There it was in the spray. The most beautiful rainbow.
It filled my heart with joy, almost bringing tears to my eyes.
Rainbows seem particularly significant and always a lovely reminder of my Mum. My daughter has a many-sided crystal that sits on her window sill, which I forget about during the Winter months.
Then, suddenly when Summer ( finally ) arrives -without warning – the sun is strong enough to sends rainbows ricocheting around her ceiling.
For those that have ever loved and lost, sometimes it is the seemingly “little” things that appear from time to time. A wonderful reminder that that person really did exist and even that your connection with them is still there and still matters.
Ever wondered if your special person, now absent in the physical is casting rainbows on your world?
This month I am very inspired by one of my clients. Her Mum died this month and she is being incredibly courageous in how she is dealing with it.
When someone as close as this dies to you, there are often a mixture of emotions. Grief of course, a sense of loss, sadness, may be even guilt – we can wonder did we do enough for that person. For some, there is a sense of perfection. As long or as short as their life was, it is complete.
Some say that you only really grow up yourself once you have lost your parents. Its the second time I’ve heard that this week and I think it is true.
My client is a real inspiration. In a short space of time she is making big decisions about how she wants to spend the rest of her life. In this sense, when someone as close as a mother dies, it can give real perspective on how do you want to live the rest of your life. This resonated with me. When my own mother died, as well as a tremendous sense of loss… There was also a sense of liberation. From then on I only had to think about what was right for me and not think of myself in relation to another person.
Therein begins a completely new chapter in your life. For me, I went on to study and become an acupuncturist, got married and became a mother myself.
” Love is a state of Being. Your love is not outside; it is deep within you. You can never lose it, and it can never leave you. It is not dependent on some other body, some external form.” ( Eckhart Tolle)
My beautiful Mum in her youth